yet again 

i find myself crumbling 

seem so brave 

but my heart is storming 

can’t you just leave 

i whispered - crying 

summer comes 

the sickness keeps brewing 

“time to bloom” 

i’m not done growing 

hold my breath 

as we wait - hoping 

trees wither 

my time finally coming 

scared before 

now fully loving 

he taught me 

no excuses - smiling